In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Six of One, Half a Dozen of the Other.”
(1) Nothing to Lose. Everything to Gain.
(2) I am better than I was yesterday.
Is that a 6-word story? It is now.
This is a mantra that I have kept with myself for well over a year now. When my previous relationship ran sour, I found myself in a situation where I could not grasp who this person was that stood right before me in the mirror each morning. She was a girl of average height, eyes of the sky, and sandy blonde but slightly sun-kissed hair. She stood there before me with deep-set eyes, an emotionless expression: a sad vessel of a human being. This human that stood before me was a mystery and the saddest part is that I had spent the last 20+ years staring at her in that same mirror. She was a girl afraid, brimming with the fear that, if any part of her escaped that vessel, she would forever be vulnerable to hurt. She kept herself well hidden away, even from herself. She entrusted only the most secret aspects of herself to one person. And it was not herself. It was in this very process that she reeled in the loss of that one person. When they left, they took all that she was with them. She had to relearn who she was and how to love what she was provided with. It had been a journey, to say the least. Within months of that loss, she came to understand that life was not all about hiding your secrets and pains and passions away. It was not about fearing and protecting yourself from the unknown. It was about taking chances and stepping out into the world to share what your God-given gift is. The trouble is that she has only realized this and not actually put it into action to the best of her abilities. But at the end of the day, she realizes that she is better than she was yesterday. And when fear visits time and time again, it’s the old saying that reminds her there is nothing to lose and everything to gain. Now she realizes there is nothing to lose and everything to gain in planting bits and pieces of herself in every person, country, and experience that she comes across. She makes her home in all of these in the hopes of carrying these memories well into the future. She sees herself as better than yesterday, having gained the sights of the world, the seeds of the heart, and the memories of years previous – without an ounce of regret within.